Today is such a beautiful day! The sun is shining, there is a nice breeze and the sky is a pretty shade of blue. It looks more like a summer day than the end of september. I love it when the weather is nice and the sun is shinning! I’ve been thinking lately to join the walk for Cancer that happens every year in October. I’ve been dragging my feet because Cancer is not talked about in my house. I realize I have not dealt with it as yet. Its something that happened and now its gone and my mother doesn’t want to talk too much about it. She wants to continue thinking and declaring herself Cancer free. Which is fine I guess but I’d like to talk to someone at least. I think if we did talk about it I wouldn’t have such an aversion to talking about it with anyone else and I wouldn’t be scared of walking this year. I’m afraid to be around others who have been through this and I don’t want to cry. Sounds selfish but it was really hard being in the hospital alone while my mom had her surgery. I cried privately away from her because it felt like such a heavy burden to bear. It scared me more than I’ve ever been and I felt alone.
I’m going to call today and find out if its too late to join the walk maybe its what I need to heal too.
Talk to you all later
Oh do walk! And yes, you will cry….ugly tears…but don’t let that stop you, everyone around you will be too. It’s an experience to do at least once.
I’m not sure of the details surrounding your mother’s cancer, is she truly cancer free? I lost my mom to cancer – it sucks – no matter how you slice it, cancer. Talk to someone, deal with the feelings – they aren’t going anywhere…only growing roots and grabbing on to internal organs pulling you down – free them, talk.
And then walk! You can register the day of, they will be happy you came. Don’t wear makeup, or make sure it’s waterproof, bring lots of kleenex and just walk…it will be an experience like no other, carthartic, and very needed. Go!
Many hugs to you, from one daughter to another –
Many hugs to you over your mom’s death. I can’t imagine how you feel. We are daughters….this disease is …so…horrible… 😦
My mother also has cancer. Currently slowly coming back. Multiple Myeloma. What kind of cancer did your mother have? It’s very hard to process especially if it’s not something you can talk with her about. yes please do the walk! It would be good for you. And it’s ok to cry! I’ve cried many times over my own mother’s cancer. I still do. I always will. It’s now a part of our life. Huge hugs to you.
Hi Lisa. My mom had breast Cancer. Stage 1. They caught it early but its the kind that multiplies quickly and by the time they took it out it had already grown. Good news is, it didn’t reach her lymph nodes. She had radiation and is now on drugs for 5 years. She has swelling in her lymph nodes which they are going to do a procedure next month to take care of. Its a roller coaster you know? I feel like I have cried so much and I am afraid to cry again. With everything that happened with the ex I hardly dealt with my mother’s condition. I want to do the run but I might be doing it by myself which I don’t want to do. I feel like crying just thinking about it…
Thanks for your kind words. It really is apart of our lives. Its like we are apart of this club now….
I feel a bit overwelmed….
My boyfriend’s mother found out she had breast cancer early this year. We were so blessed to have found it early enough. She had her surgery in March and is doing a lot better. I would like to think it is completely gone and I hope it will never come back. She is a strong women, as your mom is and they too don’t talk
About it in the house. I would love to do a walk someday. I hope you do it and if you do, please share your experience!
Thank you. I am confident it is gone. They were very pleased with the surgery and that they caught it early.
I’m going to look up the number and call tommarow about the run. My brother is playing hockey for Cancer Awareness this saturday which I am going to as well.
Thanks for your comment.